Today was Zachary and Cameron’s birthday. I adore them both so much. I thought I was going to write a lot in this post, but I think I’ll just keep it short. Happy Birthday, Zachary and Cameron. You two make my days a little brighter and my heart a little warmer.
You should just add me on snapchat because I’m basically as quality as it gets. joelynvillame
oh, i shouldn’t have fell asleep after school. that was a terrible idea and oh my god apush i can’t.
Just came home from Cameron’s family dinner. I feel like I played well today, and It basically boosted my confidence up a whole bunch. A lot of adorable little girls came up to me asking me to play something. One even came up to me while I was warming up telling me I was really talented. I was blushing and she went on to tell me about a Spongebob episode, but it didn’t matter to me. Everyone was so kind, and I even saw Kalven there (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!). (He’s basically my bestfriend from middle school.) Tonight was great. Such a great experience and I mean, who would pass up a night with Cameron and food and tapioca?
I guess I miss you. No, wait, that’s a lie. I do miss you. Very much.
I miss you more now than I did not seeing you on the weekends.
I think I took you for granted.
And that upsets me. I’m upset at myself.
Then I see you every morning. And I realize even more how much I miss you.
I realized how easily distracted I can become.
And how easily that fades away.
The people around me are so caring and protective.
It’s overwhelming. In a good and bad sense.
I’ve just wanted to be alone lately.
But I also want people around me.
No, I don’t want to be alone. I think I just want silence.
Just to think. To clear my head.
Sleeping is becoming much better.
The sinuses are clearing. You’re definitely still there though. Don’t worry.
Although the meds knock me out at a decent hour.
I want to write, but Erick has the journal.
I’m writing a song. Or I’m in the process.
Jayson encouraged me to do so.
I think it’s pretty good. It’s a great feeling to actually like something you created.
I should start my homework.
If I didn’t know you any better, you should probably start on your’s as well.
Talk to you soon maybe.
This is where it ends. A beautiful piece, a good book, and an untouched journal.
All my Houstonians, come support this amazing cause and production! (I may be singing in it maybe. You’ll have to come and find out.)
I spun in my chair some more, and I think I’m finally tired. Or maybe my head is just a bit woozy. Whatever gets the job done, right? Gooooooooood night.
Hello, my name is Joelyn Villame.
I spend most of my money on books, music, reeds, and Moleskines.
You know what would be absolutely amazing right now? A chai tea latte from Starbucks. It would be amazing anytime really. Staying home all day pretty much sucks.
I am preeeeeeeeeeettttttyyyyyy excited for The Maze Runner to come out. Preeeeeetttttttttyyyyy excited.
The Hobbit Cafe. Houston, TX. March 12, 2014.
Went to the Hunter Hayes concert last night with Becca and Emily. It was fantastic. I couldn’t stop thinking about Zach. I also had a stupid grin on my face the entire time. I’m so grateful to have such amazing friends.
In the grand scheme of things, it’s pretty early. I don’t really know how I had the stamina last year to stay up until 2 or 3 AM every night studying for WHAP or, like I am right now, doing nothing. Lately I’ve just been mentally and physically tired. I’m always overflowed with things to do, but I just don’t have the ambition I used to have to actually do them.
I don’t really have much on my mind right now. A lot of it is passive. Zach is writing an essay for English. I “studied” for APUSH. I have to wake up around 4:30 tomorrow. I don’t want to take a DBQ/FRQ. I miss WHAP. In a weird way. I’m really happy. But also really tired. One more day. Probably the longest day. Once 6th period is over, I think I’ll be okay. I don’t think I’m going to go to Kennedy’s game tomorrow. I don’t think I have enough energy for that.
I really want to be on a train right now. Somewhere in Europe. Stefan, my dad, and I were talking about this yesterday when I dropped him off. Stefan was criticizing public transportation here in America. I agree.
One of my favorite memories from Switzerland was looking out of the train window onto the Swiss Alps. They’re beautiful. I hope to see them again soon.
I should go to sleep.