12:56am
i woke up, and what you said made me feel like shit. made me feel unaccomplished. now i feel terrible for something i didn’t feel terrible about at all in the first place. you made me feel like i’m not doing enough for me. i feel like shit. it’s 1am, and i feel like shit. i don’t know how i’m going to fall back asleep. i think i need time to myself soon. i wish you hadn’t told me. it just felt like you were boasting and you wanted me to have some kind of motivation when really it just makes me feel like total and complete piece of shit who can’t even wrap her mind around her own life. i know that isn’t want you want to hear, but that’s how you just made me feel. being in this state of mind drives me crazy. i’m not going to say sorry for this one. i shouldn’t be sorry for telling the truth.
in the end, i am nothing but bones. an x-ray against a light. my mind, what i do, the feelings i feel. none of that will matter.
1:22am

12:56am

i woke up, and what you said made me feel like shit. made me feel unaccomplished. now i feel terrible for something i didn’t feel terrible about at all in the first place. you made me feel like i’m not doing enough for me. i feel like shit. it’s 1am, and i feel like shit. i don’t know how i’m going to fall back asleep. i think i need time to myself soon. i wish you hadn’t told me. it just felt like you were boasting and you wanted me to have some kind of motivation when really it just makes me feel like total and complete piece of shit who can’t even wrap her mind around her own life. i know that isn’t want you want to hear, but that’s how you just made me feel. being in this state of mind drives me crazy. i’m not going to say sorry for this one. i shouldn’t be sorry for telling the truth.

in the end, i am nothing but bones. an x-ray against a light. my mind, what i do, the feelings i feel. none of that will matter.

1:22am

Pictures at PVA.

Anonymous asked: what something that makes you very appreciative of people or things?

When someone does something very simple for me out of their own kindness or compassion. Like when someone buys me coffee or asks me if I’m okay or gives me a hug for no particular reason or carries my backpack because they know it’s really heavy. I appreciate things more when it’s quiet. A big flaw of mine is to not say anything when I appreciate it. If an inanimate object, I just marvel at it. Absorb it’s features, details, significance. And with people, gosh they might think nothing of it, but boy does it mean the world to me. 

Significance. Significance makes me appreciate.

Anonymous asked: Hydrangea, Zinnia

Hydrangea: Starbucks order?

Cold order/non-coffee order: Venti Chai Tea Latte
Hot order if in season: Grande Pumpkin Spice Latte
Hot order whenever: Grande White Chocolate Mocha

Zinnia: Who was your best friend when you were six years old?

I think it was Jordan Crutchfeild

That’s where it ended.
She stared at pixels at a screen
While a waterfall dampened the tissues pressed onto her cheeks.
She didn’t know what she wanted.
She aspires for solace.

These three months have been the loveliest with you, Miller. See you in the morning, dear.

Cheers to the greatest summer so far.

Wow, actually getting nominated for something on tumblr. Is that a thing on tumblr? Being nominated for stuff? Anyways thanks, crunk-and-classical!

Rules: In a text post, list ten books that have stayed with you in some way. Don’t take but a few minutes, and don’t think too hard — they don’t have to be the “right” or “great” works, just the ones that have touched you. Tag [ten] friends, including me, so I’ll see your list. Make sure you let your friends know you’ve tagged them.

  • The Perks of Being a Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky
  • Looking for Alaska by John Green
  • Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Salinger
  • It’s Kind of a Funny Story by Ned Vizzini
  • The Diary of Anne Frank by Anne Frank
  • The Outsiders by S.E. Hinton
  • The History of Love by Nicole Krauss
  • Harry Potter Series by J.K. Rowling
  • Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher
  • Night by Elie Wiesel

I don’t really want to tag anyone in particular, so do it if ya want!

NO EMMA APPROVED JUST FINISHED AND NO I HAVEN’T FELT THIS SAD SINCE THE LIZZIE BENNET DIARIES ENDED AND GAH SO MANY FEELS EMMA AND ALEX CNEFIUVCEHLWVCUEFIWHFRUIF :(

but the web series is amazing seriously

This song is just extremely adorable and this cover is phenomenal. 

Got new glasses! Miller tried them on and really he just looks like a dork with them but a very attractive dork. Happy I can see well again though!

Got new glasses! Miller tried them on and really he just looks like a dork with them but a very attractive dork. Happy I can see well again though!

So remember that one time one of my best friends was in the NY Times (Read it! It’s really great!) and a rap video that I’m in about Polynomials from Sophomore year was linked on the article and it gained like 300 views?

thoughts

  • frick i didn’t get enough sleep last night
  • driving test this morning woo
  • stomach hurts like a bitch
  • super happy i saw ms. childer’s yesterday
  • not so much ballard tho
  • convinced ballard never knew my name and that’s why she never called on me (thank god)
  • insurance is hella expensive
  • i want my new glasses right now
  • really want to take ap physics 2 online
  • want to see my schedule pretty badly
  • posse foundation interview next month eh
  • i want to fall back asleep
  • frack

going to austin tomorrow/monday to visit ut. idk, i just really want some bbq.

Missin’ this dork.

Missin’ this dork.